Post#20 » Wed May 20, 2009 7:44 am
This is what I wrote to Nick Farrell's blog on the 11th of this month when he posted about dwellers, in response to another person commenting.
>>The problem is, that it would seem then, a person could never get any Work done because the reality of this "shadow" would constantly have an "in your face" type of presence looming in the background.
When I have done my own search on the hga level, I found my guardian angel and demon, as well as a third figure that always looked like a shadow/bust of someone that at times also looked like a rolling mass of black and dark gray clouds. At other times, it looked slick, like oil. For a long time, I tried to find out who or what this figure was that completed this triumvirent on the hga level. I could never find any other 'entities' besides these 3 in relation to myself.
The day I found out, I hadn't heard of dwellers before. When this figure finally stepped 'out' of the shadows, it was me, standing with his hands behind his back. I asked him who he was and he said he was me.
This kind of dweller, I don't think, prevents all attempts at magick. The mechanics of magick are required for life, but the attempt to 'be a magickian' is largely prevented in many by giving them a 'taste' of it, but stopping their efforts to force you to go back to a more mundane life until you are better prepared for a more magickical one.
I would say that it is our animal instincts, which include fear. It is the lower self in the sense that it is what's at the forefront of our minds. The material is the strongest, the most forefront thing in our minds day-to-day that gets built up over time and lifetimes. 'The Dweller' will keep you bouncing back and forth between trying to do magick and the mundane life's familiarity and trying to do magick and trying to do magick well.
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I would say that the dweller is partly a psychic censor. Because there's no telling just how extensive the dweller is, with a short or long list of incarnations under your belt, I wanted it over with. I've tried a variety of visualized symbols for getting rid of self-defeating behavior: light switches, black masses of opaqe and semi-transparent energy fields that I rip out of me, etc. Sometimes, they work. Other times, they only work for varying amounts of time and the old behavior creeps back in or bulldozes its way back with the strength of the t-rex roaring in jurassic park. At some point high enough, it has to be simple and immediate to be fully rid of it.
I know that both the holy gaurdian angel and devil both use the heart chakra (not the higher or lower heart chakra, but the central and main heart chakra), as a focal point. As much as you have a differing thought/energy/occult stuff eminating from another chakra, like the crown, throat, third eye, one of the transpersonal chakras, etc., what's in the heart is gonna be the main thrust of what it does when it makes something manifest, regardless of the level. The stuff in the other chakras throughout the body can be in whatever concentrations you want them to be in, but if they aren't having the effect on how the heart chakra is outpouring what it's giving off, it won't matter.
The dweller is within all your chakras. Bits and pieces in all of them, including the smaller ones and the energy exchange ports in the fingers, toes, shoulders, etc. But, it's the central and main heart chakra that is the CPU equivilent for the dweller. All the information (feelings, thoughts, experiences) are codified a particular way, which is stored in this heart chakra. What's in there spider webs out to the other chakras and energy exchange ports. Think of a global internet connection you see in telecommunication commercials and what not. There are points of light and lines of light connecting them going all over the place. Each of the components of every aspect of the dweller in this heart is represented by each point of light.
This is why soemtimes, you get rid of the main thrust of a problem, but some things linger. If you get rid of 62% of the points of light for a single aspect of the dweller, the other 38% can connect with other things because something about it is related to something else (a similar situation, a similar response witnessed in memory, etc.). So, there is a chance of a recurrence to a degree because you haven't done as thorough as clearing as possible.
You know how a situation experienced enough will fray your nerves to that type of situation? It's like that. You might have moved on and dealt with it, but the ghostly remnants of it remain and you end up avoiding those types of situations.