[rhetoric]Morals bore-alls.
You say, doing such a ritual
bloodvenus wrote:violates the rights of others.
That sounds absurd to me! How could you violate someone's rights by way of magick? Sure, you can push events toward various outcomes with magick. But I find it hard to imagine how this is in any way a violation of someone's supposed right.
It strikes me as absurd as saying "you're messing with a persons' free will by casting an XYZ spell on them!"[/rhetoric]
Sounds to me like you have a hang-up. Your MM and the part of you that speaks through the pendulum and tarot both agree
it seems you may benefit by going against your inclination, this time. Both your methods of divination give you congruent results, yah?
Perhaps it's the notions in your mind that are the problem, as opposed to the suggested course of action that you presently find unpleasant.
Also, some people on this board have reported some issues while working with Elubatel. Perhaps you are being forewarned?
Next time you have some cash to spare, go out and order a dish you
know you dislike. Order also something you know you like also. You may surprise yourself, as you eat both; at times alternating bites of either dish. Notice your thoughts and reactions to both. Then try "staging" the inverse. Think
ew before you enjoy the bite of food. Or, before biting food you like, imagine it is a lump of shit. Before biting that which you dislike, imagine it is the food you do like. Or, recall the thoughts and feelings you had before biting the food you like. Muck around with this sort of thing now and again.
If you are not a fan of hard alcohol, may I suggest you pick up some. Get a strong tasting drink, Golden or Dark Rum is probably a "good choice" if you are not a drinker. Pour up a shot, or a double. Take it slowly, and hold it in your mouth for a little bit. Really
taste the flavors. Don't conceptualize the experience. Just drink and taste. Notice any taste changes from the initial slurp to the last trickle as you are swallowing. Notice the aftertaste too.
If you get really
into the experience of
tasting the taste your usual, habitual reaction may not manifest (be it, grimacing in disgust, a sigh of pleasure, clearing your warmed throat, whatever.)
Try this experiment several times. Once you get the hang of it, try inventing your own experiments.
As far as your magickal dilemma goes: The word of Sin is Restriction. Drink and taste.