summerland wrote:This is something i need to study and experiment on Wanderer...You know i like to experiment! It not only helps me but others....
summerland wrote:I feel ive been backed into a corner and pushed to my limits with whatever is going on..
This is quite concerning, and you most definitely need to experiment as you've done in the past. I'd recommend trying to meditate on Elubatel instead of conjuring her directly & see what happens. At this point, it sounds like she's showing up and you're not connecting for some reason, so a switch-up in the way you proceed would be wise.
Getting divinatory work done is also a good idea at this point. Clearly, things need to improve for you.