A Man, A Plan, A NAP- Pan-anal Panama (A NAP Log)
Posted: Sat May 12, 2018 4:30 pm
Hiya, pals! Welcome to Pan-anal Panama!
This here is going to be a faithful log and account of my work with the NAP system. I will be popping into this thread from time to time to give updates, and I strongly encourage feedback and witty banter! I realize some of this might get a bit dry, but I will try to interject the occasional knee-slapper to keep you engaged.
This first post will simply be an assessment of my current ritual practice and background, so that you can get to know me a little better.
Sex: Male
Age: 40ish
Location: West Coast US, large city
Religious Background: Roman Catholicism (lapsed)
Esoteric Studies Background: (Teens)Wicca, Paganism, Druidry, Discordia, Pendulum & Runic Divination; (Twenties)Angelology, non-traditional and Gnostic Christianity, western magickal organizations; (Thirties)Hermeticism, Alchemy(both western and Taoist), tarot, Chaos magick, Gallery of Magick modern grimoires
Daily Work: Dream Journal, Gratitude Journal, Tarot (one card draw), Energy body stimulation, dantian energy storage, and chakra stimulation using Robert Bruce's techniques (amounts to about 30min of energy work), 5-10 minutes of basic meditation, extensive work on my personal grimoires, ritual practice, ritual log, and was doing cardio & strength training for gounding purposes but suffered a hernia last month while lifting weights so I'm trying to find other grounding activities until I can heal the hernia.
Current Ritual Praxis: Damon Brand's Ritual Opener, Basic Call, assorted spellwork, Ritual Closer, Sword Banishing Ritual once or twice a day
Most recently finished almost all of the workings from Brand's Wealth Magick...a series of intense divinatory readings and synchronicities called me to stop the Clauneck working four days into it, and led me directly to you guys and NAP. Someone might have actually been pushing me this way for a while as I've been spending the past month making ridiculously in-depth pendulum charts, despite only hearing about NAP this week. Numerous synchronicities have been extremely clear that I'm headed in the right direction with this work.
The Plan: I'm very tempted to just integrate elements of NAP into my current practice and eliminate the sillier bits, go with a standard Kabalistic Cross & Middle Pillar, etc...but I get the feeling that the silliness might be important to NAP, at least at first. Maybe it helps keep you relaxed and loose, the goofy schlock...so I will be performing the rituals from NAP exactly as written, adding and excluding nothing until I get some concrete direction to do so. Not sure how to integrate the act of emotional alchemy into it yet but I will find a way.
The Proposed Layout: Ankar YHVH, Gate Opener, Central Pillar, Fountain, Part A Ritual/Call to Arzel, spellwork...and then I guess all that's left is to return to mundanity, right?
The Intention: I wanna win all the moneys! Nah just kidding. I mean I obviously need some money, I have rent to pay and mouths to feed. And I would definitely love the thrill of winning some, but a one time jackpot win is a pain in the ass and does little for my personal development. No, I intend to enhance my perception and intuition so that I can better sense opportunity and danger, and so that I can strengthen the communication between myself and my incorporeal pals. I then intend to increase my wisdom so that I know how to apply my skills to those opportunities, and finally I intend to increase my courage so that I can seize upon those opportunities without hesitation. I plan on increasing these three attributes one at a time, only moving on from one when I sense that enough progress has been made. Winning the occasional scratcher ticket should then happen as a mere side effect.
The Quandry: It would be an understatement to say I was called to NAP...I feel more like I've been pushed towards it by one of the forces I've been working with. I'm not sure which one, but I'm pretty certain that they are trying to establish a stronger connection. There are a few possibilities.
Nitika - Damon Brand's Magickal Cashbook was one of the first Gallery of Magick books that I read and from the very start I lamented treating Nitika like a banker and desired a deeper form of contact. Even if he is something of a banker, I'd rather sit and have a conversation with my banker than use the drive thru. Shortly before being led to NAP, I had asked for $2k because we got hit with a huge tax bill. Maybe this is loan approval.
Michael- Michael and I have a connection that goes all the way back to my baptism as a baby. He has been my patron saint for some forty years and divination indicated that it is likely that it was him that called off the Clauneck working.
Arzel/Raziel- Have been working with him a lot through GoM books and have been strongly desiring a deeper connection. His position as psychopomp or mediator makes him ideal if I want to strengthen my connection.
Elubatel- Worked with him for part of the Wealth Magick working and see that he is a big part of this system. No bullshit, he scares me. I worked with him under the constraints of Ebuhuel and Atuesuel before so nothing too severe happened, but I share a one room abode with a spouse who is subject to depressive episodes and can't have my work here endangering those around me. But maybe my call to this is a statement that I have misjudged Elubatel, and that deeper contact will clear up those misjudgements.
Of course, it could always be someone or something else entirely. I'm still not sure whom to reach out to first, but I'm thinking Nitika or possibly Labezerin. Both seem like they could help with that perception and intuition, and I'd rather they teach me to fish than just chuck sardines at me. I have no intention of using magick to get rich- I live a humble life and don't like to be tied down by too much "stuff". I do however have every intention of using magick to get by and pay the rent without actively or excessively contributing to parts of an economical system that I view as corrupt.
Scheduling: I plan on doing this every day, though there are two days a week where I may have absolutely no time to myself and on those days I may have to do the work completely silently. I have a standard day every week during which I make my offerings of attention, gratitude, and love to assorted saints, angels, servitors, and helpers. If this system requires that, they will likely be made on the same day.
So there you have it, a total background on me and my plans for NAP. I have some ritwork from GoM to finish up before I start going crazy on NAP and I want to re-read MNAP to make sure I've got everything right and maybe even start reading ANAP a little before I start the working, but I will keep you guys updated!
If you have any suggestions or advice, do let me know!
*looks up* *puts on binoculars*
Jesus necromancing Christ that is a big wall of text...sorry, guys! Next post will be shorter!
This here is going to be a faithful log and account of my work with the NAP system. I will be popping into this thread from time to time to give updates, and I strongly encourage feedback and witty banter! I realize some of this might get a bit dry, but I will try to interject the occasional knee-slapper to keep you engaged.
This first post will simply be an assessment of my current ritual practice and background, so that you can get to know me a little better.
Sex: Male
Age: 40ish
Location: West Coast US, large city
Religious Background: Roman Catholicism (lapsed)
Esoteric Studies Background: (Teens)Wicca, Paganism, Druidry, Discordia, Pendulum & Runic Divination; (Twenties)Angelology, non-traditional and Gnostic Christianity, western magickal organizations; (Thirties)Hermeticism, Alchemy(both western and Taoist), tarot, Chaos magick, Gallery of Magick modern grimoires
Daily Work: Dream Journal, Gratitude Journal, Tarot (one card draw), Energy body stimulation, dantian energy storage, and chakra stimulation using Robert Bruce's techniques (amounts to about 30min of energy work), 5-10 minutes of basic meditation, extensive work on my personal grimoires, ritual practice, ritual log, and was doing cardio & strength training for gounding purposes but suffered a hernia last month while lifting weights so I'm trying to find other grounding activities until I can heal the hernia.
Current Ritual Praxis: Damon Brand's Ritual Opener, Basic Call, assorted spellwork, Ritual Closer, Sword Banishing Ritual once or twice a day
Most recently finished almost all of the workings from Brand's Wealth Magick...a series of intense divinatory readings and synchronicities called me to stop the Clauneck working four days into it, and led me directly to you guys and NAP. Someone might have actually been pushing me this way for a while as I've been spending the past month making ridiculously in-depth pendulum charts, despite only hearing about NAP this week. Numerous synchronicities have been extremely clear that I'm headed in the right direction with this work.
The Plan: I'm very tempted to just integrate elements of NAP into my current practice and eliminate the sillier bits, go with a standard Kabalistic Cross & Middle Pillar, etc...but I get the feeling that the silliness might be important to NAP, at least at first. Maybe it helps keep you relaxed and loose, the goofy schlock...so I will be performing the rituals from NAP exactly as written, adding and excluding nothing until I get some concrete direction to do so. Not sure how to integrate the act of emotional alchemy into it yet but I will find a way.
The Proposed Layout: Ankar YHVH, Gate Opener, Central Pillar, Fountain, Part A Ritual/Call to Arzel, spellwork...and then I guess all that's left is to return to mundanity, right?
The Intention: I wanna win all the moneys! Nah just kidding. I mean I obviously need some money, I have rent to pay and mouths to feed. And I would definitely love the thrill of winning some, but a one time jackpot win is a pain in the ass and does little for my personal development. No, I intend to enhance my perception and intuition so that I can better sense opportunity and danger, and so that I can strengthen the communication between myself and my incorporeal pals. I then intend to increase my wisdom so that I know how to apply my skills to those opportunities, and finally I intend to increase my courage so that I can seize upon those opportunities without hesitation. I plan on increasing these three attributes one at a time, only moving on from one when I sense that enough progress has been made. Winning the occasional scratcher ticket should then happen as a mere side effect.
The Quandry: It would be an understatement to say I was called to NAP...I feel more like I've been pushed towards it by one of the forces I've been working with. I'm not sure which one, but I'm pretty certain that they are trying to establish a stronger connection. There are a few possibilities.
Nitika - Damon Brand's Magickal Cashbook was one of the first Gallery of Magick books that I read and from the very start I lamented treating Nitika like a banker and desired a deeper form of contact. Even if he is something of a banker, I'd rather sit and have a conversation with my banker than use the drive thru. Shortly before being led to NAP, I had asked for $2k because we got hit with a huge tax bill. Maybe this is loan approval.
Michael- Michael and I have a connection that goes all the way back to my baptism as a baby. He has been my patron saint for some forty years and divination indicated that it is likely that it was him that called off the Clauneck working.
Arzel/Raziel- Have been working with him a lot through GoM books and have been strongly desiring a deeper connection. His position as psychopomp or mediator makes him ideal if I want to strengthen my connection.
Elubatel- Worked with him for part of the Wealth Magick working and see that he is a big part of this system. No bullshit, he scares me. I worked with him under the constraints of Ebuhuel and Atuesuel before so nothing too severe happened, but I share a one room abode with a spouse who is subject to depressive episodes and can't have my work here endangering those around me. But maybe my call to this is a statement that I have misjudged Elubatel, and that deeper contact will clear up those misjudgements.
Of course, it could always be someone or something else entirely. I'm still not sure whom to reach out to first, but I'm thinking Nitika or possibly Labezerin. Both seem like they could help with that perception and intuition, and I'd rather they teach me to fish than just chuck sardines at me. I have no intention of using magick to get rich- I live a humble life and don't like to be tied down by too much "stuff". I do however have every intention of using magick to get by and pay the rent without actively or excessively contributing to parts of an economical system that I view as corrupt.
Scheduling: I plan on doing this every day, though there are two days a week where I may have absolutely no time to myself and on those days I may have to do the work completely silently. I have a standard day every week during which I make my offerings of attention, gratitude, and love to assorted saints, angels, servitors, and helpers. If this system requires that, they will likely be made on the same day.
So there you have it, a total background on me and my plans for NAP. I have some ritwork from GoM to finish up before I start going crazy on NAP and I want to re-read MNAP to make sure I've got everything right and maybe even start reading ANAP a little before I start the working, but I will keep you guys updated!
If you have any suggestions or advice, do let me know!
*looks up* *puts on binoculars*
Jesus necromancing Christ that is a big wall of text...sorry, guys! Next post will be shorter!