i need to update on my post.
i certainly felt the effects of Elubatel but my goal was not achieved. it is a goal with time limit but since she doesnt have the concept of time, i understand why it failed. i did her ritual for three days according to the book and on the fourth day received horrible news and cant bring myself to continue on it anymore. weeks later i am working on a new path because it didnt work out. of course i did divination before and afterwards and in theory it was going to work even without her help.
what i came here to say is the depression that came during the ritual was fine. it felt different it but was manageable. the depression that came when saturn moved to capricorn a couple days ago is killing me. i havent had a solid depression like this after adolescence. i am not sure if this is caused by saturn in capricorn, or Elubatel. it feels more or less like a normal depression. i stopped everything and focused on personal healing.
i also checked on what pablo said and yes, base on my natal chart saturn is a very depressing planet and relates to painful memories. i suggest everyone to check the position of their saturn before working with elubatel. maybe she does have a way to give me what i want, but thats under the premise i could live till the effects happen and there are other gods of ominipotance i could work with.
when i get better i will think on the possibility of working with her to recover the pain related to my saturn. if i do end up doing that i will update my results.