damaged from magic(k) ? ...
Posted: Mon Mar 16, 2009 3:53 pm
Hello,
I have a problem I'd like to ask some advice for .. Maybe this is not the right (part of the) forum .. Thanks for reading ...
I think/believe that I might be damaged from something of an occult nature or magic(k) of some kind (all the physical-blood tests I did were ok) .. This is what happened to me: For a couple of years I had some kind of a relationship with an individual (who I didn't like as a person), to whom I was open about who I am emotionally and intellectually ('relationship' meaning = he knew me) .. But this relationship, I later realized, was more set up like an energetic war between us, I was trying to make a fool out of this person, but I never told him that with open words .. At the end, I was provoced by him to tell him exactly what I think about him; and right after doing that, after I told the offensive words (like a powerful emotion straight from my heart), I felt that something entered inside me, it's like some kind of energy is inside my every cell .. I'm feeling the symptoms very physically; one strange thing that I'm experiencing is that I can't sense my heart-beat; it's like my heart has stopped. My whole metabolism is affected. I can't enjoy ... (maybe my heart is broken, maybe it's closed; maybe my soul has burned ... - those are some of the logical conclusions I can think of what's happening to me, if those have anything in common with magic(k)) ...
Recently in one text I read this: 'Magical attack hurts the attacker first.' (about baneful magic) .. But when I was doing what I explained before with that individual, I didn't have in mind clearly that I'm gonna do a magic(k)al act (maybe I was feeling like that more on an intuitive level) .. Although, I was aware at that point about my connection with the universe ...
Any thoughts about this ? .. Is there anything more I could explain about what happened to me, so someone could give me an advice about this ? ...
Thank you for reading.
ps: I've read about occult matters mostly from A. Crowley ...
I have a problem I'd like to ask some advice for .. Maybe this is not the right (part of the) forum .. Thanks for reading ...
I think/believe that I might be damaged from something of an occult nature or magic(k) of some kind (all the physical-blood tests I did were ok) .. This is what happened to me: For a couple of years I had some kind of a relationship with an individual (who I didn't like as a person), to whom I was open about who I am emotionally and intellectually ('relationship' meaning = he knew me) .. But this relationship, I later realized, was more set up like an energetic war between us, I was trying to make a fool out of this person, but I never told him that with open words .. At the end, I was provoced by him to tell him exactly what I think about him; and right after doing that, after I told the offensive words (like a powerful emotion straight from my heart), I felt that something entered inside me, it's like some kind of energy is inside my every cell .. I'm feeling the symptoms very physically; one strange thing that I'm experiencing is that I can't sense my heart-beat; it's like my heart has stopped. My whole metabolism is affected. I can't enjoy ... (maybe my heart is broken, maybe it's closed; maybe my soul has burned ... - those are some of the logical conclusions I can think of what's happening to me, if those have anything in common with magic(k)) ...
Recently in one text I read this: 'Magical attack hurts the attacker first.' (about baneful magic) .. But when I was doing what I explained before with that individual, I didn't have in mind clearly that I'm gonna do a magic(k)al act (maybe I was feeling like that more on an intuitive level) .. Although, I was aware at that point about my connection with the universe ...
Any thoughts about this ? .. Is there anything more I could explain about what happened to me, so someone could give me an advice about this ? ...
Thank you for reading.
ps: I've read about occult matters mostly from A. Crowley ...